Some days it comes quietly, like a soft wave I never saw approaching.
Other days it arrives heavier — a hollow feeling in my chest that suddenly grows larger than I expected.
The missing.
The ache for the person I used to be.
The version of me who had more energy than thoughts.
Who could decide something in the morning and still have the strength to do it in the evening.
Who didn’t have to measure every step, or ration every hour, or plan around what my body might tolerate.
I miss him.
I miss the body that cooperated without protest.
I miss the mind that didn’t overflow when I pushed myself a little too far.
I miss the speed, the spontaneity, the lightness — all the things I never understood were privileges until they were gone.
It’s strange how deeply one can long for oneself.
But in the middle of that longing, something else has grown — something I wouldn’t have seen if life hadn’t forced me to slow down.
I have become softer.
More patient.
More aware of the quiet details I used to rush past.
More grateful for the small flashes of ease, the good days, the tiny victories no one else sees.
I’ve had to let go of the old version of myself — not out of sorrow, but out of respect.
He was right for his time.
I am someone different now.
And even though I miss who I was, I am trying to learn to appreciate who I’m becoming.
Because inside the missing, there is also hope.
Hope that this new version of me can be good in its own ways.
Hope that life can find a new flow, even if the direction has changed.
Hope that strength can grow in the places that still feel fragile.
Yes, I miss who I used to be.
But perhaps the path forward is not about going back —
but about finding a new version of home within myself.
💭 Small steps are still progress — even when no one sees them.
✨ Not every day has to be good — but there is something good in every day.
- Inner Motivation — When No One Is Applauding
- Indre motivasjon – når ingen klappar
- When Motivation Doesn’t Show Up
- Når motivasjonen ikkje kjem
- Eg er meir enn det eg produserer
Legg att eit svar